Cyber-bullying from my own experience.....

I have been there, on the other side of the screen, humiliated by another, and hurt from the inside out. As a victim of cyber-bullying, I have learned that no matter what bullies say, it's up to you onhow well you deal with the situation.
After the first time I realized that it wasn't my fault it happened at all. It was their own doing. I had thought maybe I had done something which may have gotten me into this mess or maybe i just wasn't someone's favorite person.
After the second time it just wasn't worth it to care. I may have struggled with my self-esteem and walked with my head down in the school hallways, but even though that was who I was for that short period of time, I still had a chance to change who i was. So I gave myself a motto.
"You know I mat look fat to you, but to God I am beautiful and perfect in my own way. You may say hurtful, deceiving words that may make my heart ache and tears fall from my eyes, but I am strong and I will make it through my life and make something big out of myself."
I know that God is there to comfort us in our times of need. No matter how big or small the situation is. I have learned so much about myself after all i have been through. And I have been able to choose who I want to become in my life. This has helped me to know who I am and hold my head up high when I walk.
I know now that this was something that was meant to happen to me to learn to treat myself with respect and help gain respect from others.

Summer!!!

I can't believe my Sophomore year is over! I am so excited for the upcoming year seeing as I won't be a lower class man anymore. I hope this summer will be fantastic and worth it. What are you all doing for summer? I'm going on dates!

This Year to Me

This year has been a great experience to me. I am only a sophomore and I have done things I never thought I'd have the chance to do during my high school career. I was able to join my High School Ballroom Team, go to State Convention again as a District Finalist in FFA Science Fair, I took classes that pushed my brain to work harder and I also dissect a frog(wait I made my partner Sam do that. I got sick. He absolutely tore it apart. And I bet you can imagine the horror on my (green-like) face), but although those things were great and fantastic I struggled.A LOT!
I started out in social dance as a girl who just happened to love to dance. I dance after school with a dance teacher that I adore. She has taught me that although I get injured a ton I am still a graceful dancer. I ended up taking a spot on the ballroom dance team to help out a friend who needed a partner at the time. I worked my butt off to get the routines down for the Christmas recital. With only two weeks of being on the team, the recital came and I did it. My partner and I did a great job and we made our coach and team proud. I am truly grateful that I had the opportunity to work with such a great group of people, a great coach and a wonderful dance partner. I'm sad that I won't be doing it next year, but I had a blast at least.
State Convention was a great experience again this year seeing as I convinced my friend to come with me so I wasn't the only one showing off our science project. She may have stayed only one night but she made the trip worth it. The jokes on the bus were hysterical. Would you rather games ended up breaking the silence well not quite(I think the snoring that was coming from the girl sharing the room with us was pretty funny). We didn't place at state, but who really cares. All that matters is that we had fun, right? I think so.
Haha letting Sam dissect the frog was probably a bad idea. He tore it to shreds. Which made me sick to my stomach. Good thing our Biology teacher is nice. She understood why I became sick(I had to look at it!) Nastiest thing I have ever seen. It smelt nasty too! Well I'm making myself sick just thinking about it again. So I'm going to stop talking about it.
I am so glad this year is almost over, but upset that it leaves me with only two years left of school after this year. I can't wait though to see what else the world has to offer me.

Untitled

Holy Hannah! It's been forever since I have written on this blog. Its been almost a year. Well life has gone by so quickly. Sophomore year is almost over, Junior year is going to start, and that just means I'm getting old. Well I'll try to keep up on both blogs at this point. Have an awesome summer!

Enclosed

Verse 1: I'm stuck in the middle of an open crowd waiting for something to bring me down. I'm crawling across the floor trying to make it to the door, but at the moment I'm enclosed in this room wishing I didn't fear my doom.

Chorus: I'm taking my time to figure out, what my life is all about. You're enclosing me during an open fire, trying to break down all my desires. But it doesn't bother me cause I'm already starting to flee. I'm being enclosed and I'm slowly moving on.

Verse 2: Back down off your pedistool because its making you look like a fool. Change how you're looking at me until your face is wiped clean.
                   (repeat chorus)
Ending: Stop enclosing me in this crowd or I may not make it back down.

Turning Pages

Verse 1:I'm staring at a blank page on the edge of an old book
I'm thinking of what life would have brought me then I turn to look.--->hold
Chorus:I'm turning pages to see where my life may be
Here I will stand in my better path waiting for a chance to stay clean
and away from your words of heartbreak and wrath
For right now I'm dreaming this dream.
Verse 2:I'm waiting for something to capture my heart
I'm trying to find somewhere to start 
Keep me going all day long.
(Repeat Chorus)

Feel Like Crying

Verse 1:  you've got someone on your back
a point to get across
time is rough through your eyes----->
Chorus:do you feel like crying?
cause you are being ignored
does life revolve around someone else?
cause you are on your own 
go ahead and cry
cause you need sometime for yourself
Verse 2:others making fun of you 
tearing you down all the time so....------>
(Repeat chorus)